Finding my Sea Legs 🌊

Deep Reading = Self Regulation for Nerds 📖

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Finding my Sea Legs

I’ve written a lot about feeling overwhelmed and over capacity this year. My creative ecosystem was out of balance and I had to take action to correct my load. This is my first week after putting two big projects on pause and I’m feeling myself again.

I think I just avoided a mental breakdown if I’m completely honest. I was teetering very close to crisis, but I’ve been there often enough I knew what I needed to do.

Now that I’m “all caught up” on my university course, prep for the Entwined launch, and I’ve been able to create some white space. Right now we are finding a rhythm for home ed that includes my own creative practice, self regulation, and ongoing learning as well as David’s. I’m already feeling the positive effects.


First Up! 🌀

Just in case you missed it, here’s an update on the picture book project I am co-creating with . We crowdfunded this last year and it’s in the illustration phase!

Click here to read the full update from Gracie.


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Reading 📖

Next up is an addition to our Home Brew Home Education. I wanted a picture book that introduced the concept of home education and this does a beautiful job of it.

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The author / illustrator was homeschooled himself and it comes through in the lively illustrations. It feels impossible to choose which spreads to include. You can see more here. It’s a lovely book. (You can purchase & support an indie bookshop here.)

My own reading has been Meandering by Sofia Lemon & Jung and Alchemical Imagination by Jeffrey Raff.

Both of these books are research for my fiction novel, but there’s always interesting overlaps into other areas of my creative practice. I’m exploring imagery of spirals and meanders relating to writing, but I suspect it will bleed into my visual art soon enough.

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These books are having an interesting conversation re: creative imagination.

They are both very academic and Meandering in particular is taking me back to my grad school days. I feel really grateful that I’ve had the mental capacity to dig into these. I credit:

  1. Sleep (David has been putting himself down with audiobooks for the past year and it has honestly made a world of difference in my capacity.)

  2. Mornings Outside + Nintendo Switch + Khan Academy Kids (these three things are what give me a chance to do my own work – we still don’t have childcare).

  3. Expanding self imposed deadlines so I don’t feel like I’m drowning.

I just wanted to mention the scaffolding behind being able to dig into dense reading like this – even if my notetaking feels a bit frenetic and ad hoc – I wouldn’t have dreamed I’d been able to do this even a year ago. Our days are starting to feel expansive enough for me to do deep work instead of surface level work and it’s very restorative.

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This illustration is by Eduardo Navarro.

We lost wifi for over 24 hours due to a storm this week, and it was really positive. I also started reading Art Fundamentals and finished How We Might Live (2022).

On my To Read list is I Cannot Control Everything Forever recommended by . It was love at first flat lay for me.

https://instagram.com/p/C-0RPr8RC6o/


In the Studio 🐇

Last year I could barely thread my sewing machine before making my gleeman’s cloak. Now I’ve hemmed 3 pairs of pants. The ironing did flare up my back pain, but I’m still counting it as a win.

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While the sewing machine was out I also sewed some “brain noodles” for my soft sculpture project. I’ll probably share more about that next week, but here’s a snippet on Instagram.

https://instagram.com/p/C-5palMRRew/

Also, I’m looking at (shadows) like art – inspired (again) by Marina Grosshoy. This is the kind of post that the IG algorithm really hates. If you have an account and want to give it some love I’d appreciate it. I should probably try to please the algorithm more before launching a book. 😂

https://instagram.com/p/C-9FAoLsys7/


In the Garden 🌱

I was feeling so much better this week (aside from the ironing) we even took a stab at weeding the front garden. You can see how overrun with grass it is, but we made a bit of progress around the herbs. We really need more perennial plants in here to help hold the space against the grass.

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Digital Foraging 🍁

Some bits and bobs I’ve collected for you this week.

Also…


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This time last year…

I interviewed on my (erstwhile) podcast!

I don’t have capacity to podcast very often, but I’m so glad I made time for this. I’ll be dusting off my podcast microphone next month so watch this space. If I only podcast once a year that’s once more than never.


This newsletter is a curated collection of tidbits from my overgrown Compost Heap (or digital garden.) You’re welcome to rummage around, turn the heap, and see what you can find for yourself. 🪱🐛🌱


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I was a preteen when I saw this at Monticello and the idea of reading multiple books at once was instantly captivating. Having that experience this week made me remember the book stand – and I’d much rather make my own than pay $500 to the Jefferson estate.

Comments

  1. Lindsey Melden Avatar
    Lindsey Melden

    I loved that picture book when we were homeschooling too! He captures the cozy and magic of home school so tenderly 💞 glad you’re finding balance!

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      I love the vibes! It’s a beautiful that learning is all around us and it doesn’t have to be so formal. Leaning into that and finding more ease and wonder in our days is definitely helping. 💫

  2. Tamsin Avatar
    Tamsin

    Wow, you are so busy I’m sure I couldn’t keep up! No wonder you struggled when you were doing more.

    I am employing many procrastination skills atm. I have curtains to make. I’ve had curtains to make for about 4 months . And yet … I’m writing a little and making knitted toys quite a lot. I’m planning in my head and now writing it down which is fatal and leads to ideas death, but buying tools and supplies for those ideas I will most assuredly forget. Though I have managed a to buy a couple of books so that jog my memory.

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      I do the same buying supplies and not using them right away. When something is out of sight it stops existing! 😂

      I have always had a problem of doing too much. To a certain extent I thrive on multiple projects, but it’s hard to know where the tipping point is. Especially now I have a kid the family’s health is such a wild card factor! I’m slowly learning to better monitor my capacity and make adjustments, but it’s been a long road to get here.

  3. Stephanie Ascough Avatar
    Stephanie Ascough

    I love reading about your homeschooling journey. Right now, my plan is to find a part time remote job, then homeschool my two youngest next school year. It’s tough because they struggle with the long day in public school but I haven’t been in a place where I could homeschool them and not have a breakdown. I think I’m getting there, though.

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      I am rooting for you. It’s so hard to take care of ourselves in the way we need to parent in the way we want to. I’m glad to hear that sharing our home ed adventures is helpful or inspiring. It’s just the kind of thing that would have felt “off brand” last year, but I have to be all of me to keep showing up here. 🌀

      1. Stephanie Ascough Avatar
        Stephanie Ascough

        Thank you. I’m glad you feel safe showing up as you.❤️

        1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
          Sarah Shotts

          ❤️❤️❤️

  4. A. Wilder Westgate Avatar
    A. Wilder Westgate

    I just love seeing all of your projects, and it’s so comforting to see another person who has so many in progress/in variying levels of completeness, because that’s how my creative projects always are. It reminds me that there’s nothing wrong with my brain and creative process. 🧡

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      Yes! I find that projects in multiple stages and mediums are really essential for me. It’s just the timeline / deadline parts I need to be careful about. Entwined is at a really draining stage so working with my hands is a great balance to that. Allowing things to take the time they take is an ongoing process. I’m always glad to hear when this approach resonates because I feel less alone. 🤍

      1. A. Wilder Westgate Avatar
        A. Wilder Westgate

        Yes! I sometimes overwhelm myself a bit, but I also tend to feel really bored if I don’t have multiple things going, so I’m working on finding that balance. I think I do something similar with books now, as well. I tend to be reading multiple books from different genres at the same time.

        1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
          Sarah Shotts

          Me too! I just pivoted from these academic books to The History of Middle Earth (the volume with drafts of LOTR) and a Terry Pratchett novel. 📚

  5. Gray Jordan Avatar
    Gray Jordan

    So much to explore in this post! I can definitely see the magpie mind of a fellow homeschooler at work and wanting to dive into the joy of all the things. I think my processing works too slowly to ever feel expansive enough to do so many things at once but I am getting to a place where I’m finding a balance between homeschooling and my own creative practice and it’s such a nice place to be. It’s also very heartening to hear you’ve gotten to a place where you know how to step back from a few things to clear some mental space. I’m still working on that! So pleased to have discovered your writing!

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      So lovely to meet you Gray. I popped over to your Insta and so drawn to your work. Thank you for saying hello. 🩶

      A few years ago I had quite a serious breakdown / burn out / mental health scare and learned that I actually have limits. It’s still hard to honor my capacity, but I am learning. This frame of home educating has been a beautiful invitation to take a step back and reimagine our days. ⛅️

  6. Gracie Klumpp Avatar
    Gracie Klumpp

    I love seeing what you’re up to, and all the ways you nurture yourself and pivot to support what you need. It’s really inspiring in the best, most quiet of ways. Also super love the shadow art! That’s always been a thing for me that I haven’t yet figured out how to celebrate and explore as a project, but I love what you’ve created!

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      Thank you Gracie. Shadows are magic. 🌘💫

  7. Miranda R Waterton Avatar
    Miranda R Waterton

    That picture book is pure Quentin Black, but also totally its own creation. Glorious. I’m actually rather in awe of you for all the different things you are managing to achieve. Deep reading often turns out to be the compost in which everything creative grows.

  8. Jessica Avatar
    Jessica

    Love these book recommendations. You may have already read this if you’re looking at spirals and meandering but I bought a copy of Meander, Spiral, Explode: Design and Pattern in Narrative a little while back (haven’t had the chance to read much yet but it seems really interesting!)

    1. Sarah Shotts Avatar
      Sarah Shotts

      Yes, this is one I’ve read! 🌀🌀🌀

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